I finally succeeded in drawing something cute instead of angry/sad/tired. It was a sketch I did in about an hour in bed. I think my outline of the drawing turned out better than the final inking, but eh what can you do. Good start to a new style, and glad to break through and draw something happy for once.
I was supposed to draw something cute, instead I drew something angry. I suppose anger is a step up from drawing pain and soullessness, but not as big of a step as I’d hoped for.
I came up with this idea while hiking (and getting passed). I figured this extreme competitiveness is the same reason I get so upset about DotA games. I’m kind of disappointed in the execution. I think my previous piece looked better and that this is a regression. That said, the blue guy’s hand is pretty good so at least there’s that.
For the first time, drawing myself as a soulless husk of woman felt alien.
This is an addendum to the drawing I posted yesterday.
Months ago, when I started drawing this, I didn’t know what it was I was drawing, or why I was drawing it. I saw the creature’s shape in the fibers of a hanging hand towel and felt compelled to sketch it out. Upon completion and reflection it seems to me this drawing is a representation my past depression.
The setting is a dark woods, a symbol of suicide. The sky is lighter near the horizon, indicating that the sun has just set, or is just about to rise. I think the sun is rising by the way the creature seems to be leaving the forest.
The creature is representative of several dimensions of my depression and past suffering. It floats off the ground, detached from the world, but still in it. The body is diseased, the creature has a rotten core. The face is blind, those who cannot see cannot leave the forest. The teeth sharp and cruel like my words were. The outer shell resembles a broken bone, my daily, throbbing pain. I don’t remember what the antlers are about :p
This post is a bit self indulgent and perhaps comes off as a case of 2egdy4u or over thinking. Either way, I figured I’d share for posterity’s sake. For anyone wondering, I don’t identify with the drawing.